Jesus Take The Wheel

Package delivered but no news for us

At this point I have to admit I am very discouraged. It has now been almost four months. Some people have PA in a matter of days. Why is it taking so long for ours? It has now been over a month since they resent it. I know I should be happy for everybody getting their PA,LID,LOA, and TA but it is so hard. It should be us. At least if our agency would have sent our dossier we could at least be logged in but they insist it will take longer that way. I am not so sure about that. I have seen times where it didn't make a difference. I keep praying about this and I just don't understand. How do we know that they haven't lost our LOI(Letter of Intent)again? Good thing this is our last adoption because I definitely can't handle the stress again.

Next week we will be in Florida. J and I will actually be there for two weeks. Dad is having knee surgery. I hope I am busy enough that I won't think about it. Everyday it is so depressing when 8:00 p.m. arrives and there is no news. Fridays are even worse because there is no chance of news until at least Monday. So let's hope I can go a couple of weeks without thinking about it. Probably not a chance but one can always hope.

Wrong again

No PA today. I don't know if there is hope for tomorrow or not. Oh, where oh, where is it?

Will it be today?

Packages are arriving at other agencies today. I am praying our agency will get its package and our PA will be in it. I will be on pins and needles until after the time our agency might call(8:00 p.m.). Our PA has just got to be in there. I started painting Grace's room today. Paint it and it will come, right? It just has to come today.

Positive Thoughts

I am feeling much better today. Last week was very discouraging. In the adoption process nothing happens the way it should and it just isn't fair when your turn should come and it is skipped. I let it get to me last week. I am going to start this week with postive thoughts! I really hope to get good news this week but we need to remain postive even if that news doesn't come.

Originally we said we weren't going to paint Grace's room until we recieved PA. I am now thinking about going ahead and painting. If we truly believe God meant for Grace to be our daughter, doesn't that mean we should have the faith to prepare for her.

Please pray we get PreApproval for Grace this week. I hate the thought of her staying in a foster home when she could be with her forever family.

I was wrong

No PA(PreApproval)for us. Lots of other people who have not waited near as long recieved them but not us. I wonder if God is trying to tell us something. It has been almost 4 months, most people recieve PA within a month, at the most 2 months. We wouldn't be so concerned if our agency would go ahead and send our dossier but they think waiting for PA is best. Agencies do it both ways. I don't know which is better but at this point I would think ours would be better off if it was already in China. So until next week...

Bring Me Hope

I may be wrong but I hope I'm right

I really think we are going to get PA today or tomorrow. I really think today but I don't want to put all my eggs in one basket. I know another agency recieved some today so our agency should get some, too, right? Our agency hasn't recieved any since 3/2. There are lots of people waiting. Unfortunately they usually don't get their package until 5:00-6:00 Utah time which is 7:00-8:00 our time. At this time that would be such great news. Then our dossier could make its way to China ASAP.

I will definitely be posting again if we get the news.

Grace's Birthday

I forgot to mention that we went out to eat at a Chinese restaurant last night for Grace's birthday. Below are the fortunes we each had in our fortune cookie.

D-Don't kiss an elephant on the lips today.

K-There is no greater pleasure than seeing your love one prosper.

Little K(not so little anymore)-Every moment is a golden one for him who has vision to recognize it as such.

N-Don't ever slam a door, you might want to go back.

Z- A small gift can bring joy to the whole family.

J- Everybody feels lucky for having you as a friend.

Tomorrow is another day, let's sure hope it brings PA.

Happy Birthday, Grace!

More out of order pictures. Aren't Grace's siblings cute?

Happy Birthday, Grace!

All these pictures wouldn't fit in the last post. Now they will be out of order but at least you get to see them all.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,GRACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday to you
Happy Birthday, Dear Grace
Happy Birthday to YOU!!

We hope you had a nice 2nd birthday! We knew we wouldn't be able to get you before this birthday but we thought we would at least be able to send you a package. Since we still haven't recieved PreApproval we didn't get to send you that birthday package. We still celebrated your birthday but wished you could be with us. The kids had fun opening your birthday presents and eating your cake. The presents will be here when we bring you home. As soon as we can a package will be coming your way.

God has a plan for us all. We believe he has chosen you to be our daughter. There must be a reason for these delays. God must be preparing us both for the day you become our daughter. He has great plans for you! We love you!

No News

No News is not good news! We are still waiting. Will PA arrive this afternoon, next week, or the week after? It will happen but when? Grace is waiting for us. God has a plan for us and her.

I read something interesting yesterday about patience. Patience is living every moment to the fullest. If you dwell on the future you aren't enjoying the present. So let's enjoy every moment of everyday.




This is the video D found.

A poem for Grace

KISSES IN THE WIND


I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...
Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.
But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I send to you each night.
--- Unknown

LOI arrived in China

Our LOI should have arrived in China, today. I wonder how long it will take for PA this time. I dream of hearing something the end of next week. I know that isn't likely but it is a nice dream.

Reality is setting in. It probably won't be this summer that we travel. If so, the very end of summer.

I did find two other people adopting from the same orphanage as Grace. One was DTC at the end of December and is with the same agency as us. She is in the United Kingdom. The other family is in Pennsylvania and they are with a different agency. They aren't DTC yet but probably will be soon.